Austin is lovely.

being surrounded by the best of friends yet feeling very alone.
whoever is above us or whatever saint or gods take care of us
they really shine me with great things.
minus the bad habits and all but I'm to blame for those.

I'm to blame. blame me. I feel sorry for my mother and sister. the two people i truly love. I'm just in another world trying to find something that's not there anymore. been gone for ten years yet i still weep, cry, torture, abuse, and hurt myself over it every day. some never move on. somethings just die young. Ive been doing everything i said i would do. been following my plans. trying to be a man, showing her i can. that is all that matters. that's is all. other than feelings of disgust and lonesome/ depression and self destruction. good things happen. I'm having a lot of fun. seeing things i want to see. living the life i said i would when i moved out here and going wherever i want. doing it however i want.

that is all i have

Eternal Summer

Scummer

ck

yours truly with a heart of gold